People may say teenagers maybe too young to be engross in emotions/feelings and relationship.
Of course you may listen to this and run away from somethings in life when it comes to you.
But to me, life is about living to the fullest extent, trying our very best to overcome obstacles that may appear in front of us and accept everything that life has to offer. Feelings come and goes, and that is very certain. But as of now, i shall prioritize on my o'lvls but i should also accept the challenges in life at the same time , not running away from them.
Few years down the road , i may laugh at myself , why for being so silly, and done things that i shouldn't have. But without this , we may lose out some life lessons , experience , that comes along with it. Life isn't about living to the very perfection, But experience most things and have fun.
Of course, there are still things that we must do now so as to live a better life later , to experience more things in life that will only comes with the things we does now.
Few years down the road , if i didn't did the things i wanted to do now, i may ask myself '' Why did i not do this? I just miss out on a great portion on life that has to be offered.''. If we only did things that is according to what is right and what is wrong, you may find yourself missing from most things in life , living an empty life. Of course , there are still things that shouldn't be done like theft , arson , drugs , assaulting, mostly related to crimes.
However, there are many things that doesn't have a TRUE answer. What is right on the surface may be wrong in a deeper sense and vice-versa. There are things that should be experienced by yourself and not by listening to others. Through this , you may realised that your decision is wrong and you should have listened, but this is life. Life is mostly about regretting mistakes that we shouldn't have done.
Through all these experiences, it will gives us a better decision making skills too. Imagined if we always listen to others, you never learned a thing. We gradually become more reliant on people,
for their decisions.
How do you know it's wrong if you never try? Just like mathematics , if you won't attempt to solve a problem , of course it will always be wrong, but what if you attempt and got the answers?
Lastly , i have always like this quote '' You miss 100% of the shots you don't take.''
Uncertainty
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 6:33 AM
Today is the day i longed for , exited about this ,
but at the same time , fear and dread possess me.
You ask me whether i like her, i said 'maybe?'
You ask her whether she likes me , she said 'maybe?' or remain quiet about it.
Why did i have to say maybe?
Maybe considering the situation , the word 'maybe' is best suited for it.
But 'maybe' is not a define answer.
We expect an answer for something out of nothing.
Just like 'anything' , you demand for a decision by not demanding for anything.
Shouldn't we just say out a clear-cut answer?
No more pondering, doesn't need to think about right or wrong,Yes or no.
How simple is that? Nobody really knows.
Clear-cut answer, it save us from the agony of curiosity, that is certain.
After all we are still creatures that let emotions decide for us.
Not based on logic and or thinking, but intuition that is born into us.
I should not have said 'maybe' , but yes, as a matter of fact.
Power of emotions
Tuesday, February 23, 2010 3:40 AM
Today was the annual cross-country that i much dreaded.
However when i saw you , you lighted up my day.
Everything which seems insurmountable and impossible,
changed after i saw you.
You gave me the strength to jog, to run , and to accomplish.
You had started running before me,estimated of 20 minutes,
and only running 3.2km for girls,
I took up the challenge of catching up to you,
before you complete the cross-country.
Upon hearing the bang of the starting pistol,
You are all i had in mind.
Through sheer determination,by thinking of you,
I caught up to you in the half length of the race.
I gave up the prize that is awarded to top 10 runners,
in exchange for the time given so that i can walk with you.
I knew if i run, nothing could detered me from winning.
Maybe it's god's decision for the situation to be awkward.
Starting a conversation was just out of the topic.
The time was so short that before i realise it,
we had come to the end of the race, without much conversation.
Anyway , i'm satisfied with just that alone.
Sunday, February 21, 2010 7:11 AM
People say first love is bitter. Maybe it's true. You turn your back to me and walk away. my voice never reaches you to begin with. Your figure slowly dissapears into the brightness white. Dissapearing in my life but not in my heart, Just like how u dissapear , i started remembering how i met you. You appear beside me before i realise it. I look up in the sky and see, There's a shining star, shinning into my life. You became my
Friday, February 19, 2010 10:21 PM
However bad u treat me, i do not mind.
However long i have to wait , i do not mind.
After all, i had waited for few years already.
However you are so cold-hearted.
You can forget your feelings so fast.
You look so near to me , yet so far.
I will always look out for you from afar.
However bad u treated me , i do not hope anything to happen to you.
Because you are still my
8:07 PM
I had realise why my eyes becomes watery whenever i heard this song.
Some of it reflected parts of my life. It was some predictions that deep in my heart
,i knew it was going to happen.. Even before that happens , whenever i listen to this song,
it made me cried.
Maybe it's just fate.I am bound to this song in my life.
I wish we could stay as one
7:31 PM
I am deeply sadden by what i have read..
deeply antagonize by you
What you have told me , to me was important , but it was all...
but lies.
You don't understand how i felt about you,
While i have been hinting to you all these times.
You neither accept nor reject , which gave me a glimpse of hope , a glimpse of light.
However when i search deeper into you ,
the light gradually diminished until total darkness surrounds me.
I search frantically for you , but you never came.
Tears flow down my eyes , like stars falling from the sky.
I realise i didn't even stand a chance in your heart.
Holding the affections all these years , was in vain.